April 1, 2003

Too tired to fool anyone today and isn't that kind of a dumbass tradition anyway?  One day out of the year set up specifically to make the people around you look like jackasses?  Nah, I think I'll pass on that this year.  A lot of them seem to be doing a fine job on their own (just kidding).

I'm grumpy because I'm tired.  I think that's why I was drawn to this pictures for the journal for today.  I feel like closing the door on the world, grabbing a kitty and crawling up in bed for the day.   I'm just beat.  I have a really lousy headache and had to be up again through the night with Delena's earache.  I did manage to get her out the door to school today, so that's success.  She seems better, so that's a start.

To demonstrate the day that Nathan is having, I'll tell you what I found in the tortoise tank a little bit ago:

1 crayon

1 q-tip

1 stick of "Campfire Jam" incense

1 fork

1 spoon

5 steak knives

4 Fuji apples

2 handmade grapevine pentacles

1 Virginia state quarter

*sigh*  He worked fast too.  He was in the room for literally about 30 seconds.  He's been a busy boy the whole day and there is a hysterical edge to everything he wants in the Universe.  Believe me, he wants a lot... and often.  I'm on a wicked period that is punishing me for being female and I'm totally not in a kid mood.  It's like my ovaries suddenly realized they haven't kicked a kid out in 3 years and are trying to overachieve before they shrivel into raisins.   It would be great if they got in touch with the Tied Fallopian Twins and heard the message that we're finished for this life.  For now, it's just making me crabbier and hungry enough to eat the world.  Fortunately, I don't get menstrual cramps any more, so I don't have to contend with that.  I've never been Pagan enough to want to anoint myself with my menstrual blood and welcome my menses as my dear friend. 

The lilies are doing so beautifully this year.  We also unexpectedly had an iris bloom.  I put out those damned iris bulbs the year we moved here and they have NEVER bloomed once and a few days ago, there it was in purple glory!  The lilies (Calla lilies) keep me grounded in my miracles, always reminding me that I'm surrounded in wonderful things and great blessings, even when I'm having a sucky day (week).  They also remind me that even though I'm totally blessed, I can still have a sucky day and that's OK too.

This picture reminds me of what I like about California.  It's right across the street from my house and when I step outside my front door and look at it, I see a gigantic palm tree growing up almost through a big pine tree.  The diversity of it is an icon for all that's here, at least to me.  It's also showing what a grim and gloomy day it is.  Screw this diet.  I just ordered potato skins from the pizza joint.  Twenty minutes and counting.  My sweetie also called and said that when he gets home at 3:30, he's going to TAKE OVER and make dinner and watch kids and I'm going to get to go to bed!!  YAYY!!  Another lily must have just popped!  :)

Guess I'll go clean my house so he comes home to a nice environment to pamper me!  I'll be around tomorrow.

Hope we all have a great night!